Current mood:	chipper
Current music:	D.I. - Vocal Trance 32k

Dream: What it feels like to melt...
First, I'd like to thank everyone who expressed concern for us during the wildfires back in October. We are perfectly alright right now. The fires are out. We're currently dealing with floods and mudslides now, out in the burn areas, due to our first winter rains, but for us personally, we are doing fine. There's nothing threatening our house. We are in a safe area and life has started to get back to normal.

I also wanted to briefly mention that I went on a bit of a shopping spree. I co-signed on a new vehicle with burrwolf. I ordered a BowFlex machine, got a new leather jacket, picked up Guitar Hero and all it's games, turned around and bought a real guitar, and I just recently bought a PlayStation 3. Don't ask me why I did this, especially just before Christmas, but I don't buy myself much all year and finally had the urge to go out and get stuff I've been wanting.

All that aside, I'd actually prefer to talk about this melting dream! I didn't even set out to have one, but this has been the best and most lucid melting dream I've ever had. I was even in my anthro fox form for it!

At some point in my dream, I became lucid. I was aware that I was dreaming and could do anything I wanted. Luckily, my mind went to liquid shifting almost immediately.

Satisfied with my choice, I got done on my stomach and held my upper body up on my hands. I looked down at my black handpaws and tried to start the process of melting down.

The sensation didn't start right away. I did feel how solid and normal my body felt. For a moment, I wondered if I'd be able to do it, but within a matter of moments, I could feel my hands start to feel warm and squishy. Between the fingers, I could see the black liquid start to appear from my hands themselves. My hands started to feel real loose. My arms started to sink lower to the ground as my fingers disappeared and vanished into the growing pool of black goo that looked a little like oil. The orange from my upper arms started to drain down and mix into the color.

Meanwhile, my footpaws and waist started to do the same thing. It was an odd sensation. It's like I was sinking into the ground, starting to submerge beneath it like quicksand, only there was no quicksand, or course. The ground was solid. I looked down at it and could see myself pool and spread out over it. My liquid body widened and pooled around me, growing out the more I melted.

I was comfortable with it. To be honest, it felt great! It really was like I RPed it. Just as I imagined, it felt great because it really was like all the stress, all the aches and pains, literally melted away. It was such a great feeling of release. Just letting go, so utterly and completely, felt so good, I didn't want to stop until my whole body was a puddle.

I started to have trouble, though. I seemed to do okay with my features and my extremities, like my hands and feet, but the main part of my body, my upper arms, thighs, and torso, wasn't melting as easily. I guess I could imagine the lightest and outer most portions of my body melting, but closer to the center of my body, the bulk of it, I had trouble imagining that melt easily. The melting process started to slow to a stop.

So, I pushed myself. I wasn't sure how I was going to do it for a moment, but the answer came rather intuitively. I thought about what was making it work so far and focused on that.

I realized that, as I was melting one of the things I was doing was feeling the effect gravity had on my body. It was something I subconsciously noticed, but now I brought it to the fore front of my mind. Taking that into consideration, I thought about how gravity naturally had a pull on my body and wanted to pull it to the ground. I simply let it. I gave myself to it. I gave the rest of my body to it and wanted the rest of my form to go.

Focusing on that worked. I could feel the pull and the sinking sensation started up again. I could feel my entire body dripping. I started to loose sensation of certain features. I couldn't feel the shape of hands, feet, my waist, my arms were going away, my legs were already pretty much gone. At this moment, all that really remained was my upper body and my rear. The lower part of my back even completely melted to the ground, so it sorta made it look like my upper and lower body were no longer connected. Odd thing was, I could still feel my entire body. A solid form may not have connected my vanishing features, but a liquid body did, and I could still feel everything. It's just that everything that had a definite shape was loosing up and becoming liquid instead.

That continued to help with one of the fears I had with melting originally. I imagined that if I melted, it would be like losing myself. I feared losing all feeling and just feeling my body go completely away. I never considered how my body wasn't going anywhere. I was simply going from solid to liquid and that I would continue to have a body, albeit fluid. I wasn't losing myself, if anything, I was freeing my body of all tension and stress. It felt so good...

So, without fear of "losing" the rest of myself to it, I let gravity do it's thing and pull me under. I nosed my vulpine muzzle to the orange goo down below me and allowed myself to fall in. I closed my eyes and let my head, neck, shoulders, and upper body collapse into the growing mound of liquid body. I felt my wagging tail be the last to go. I wagged and swirled it until the last wet flop into the puddle and soon I was done.

I must have kept my ears to the last moment too because I lost sight, but I could still hear for a bit longer. The sound was like being under water. Everything sounded muted and I did hear a gurgling sound, like swimming about under water. My body felt flat, but it still felt lively and animated. I couldn't sense head for tail, but I can still feel myself as a liquid form, and my whole body felt like it was floating.

I allowed myself to lose myself to the new feelings I was having and thoroughly enjoyed the peace that it brought. Fully relaxed, free flowing, no doubt surging about the floor a bit as I rolled and washed my form from side to side... I wanted to explore moving about in this form next, but this is where I eventually woke up. I was enjoying it too much to want to attempt anything new. I just relaxed into it and basked in the bliss of being melted. It wasn't too much longer before I had to get up and I made sure to remember this for posting later.

Some of you have asked me what being a liquid shapeshifter is like. I RP and draw this. I shouldn't know what it's like, since it's not physically possible in real life, but my dreams might be close! I hope this gives you guess some insight into what it's like, for me personally, at least. It could be different for others, but this is how I imagine it. In addition to what you read above, warm, soothing, relaxing, and very comfortable, if you can get over the odd sensation of losing definition and shape to a form that's more fluid and non-solid. I think it's a fascinating experience and something anyone should try if they're interested in feeling what it's like. Your dreams are the best testing grounds for any experience you'd like to have that reality won't seem to let you have. >; ]